Angry Alice

At the beach. Feeling lighter. Feeling pissed off! This is really a first. I have spent so much of the last 10 months being devastated and heartbroken I forgot to be pissed off. Well hello Angry Alice. I am pissed off. I have lived basically 2 places in my life...until the last 4 years. In the last 4 years, I have moved 7 times. Count them SEVEN FREAKING TIMES!  I was following my love, my life all over the country, for 'his job' when in reality I think some of it was just trying to escape the double life he created and didn't know how to get out of.  Unpacked my last box. Thinking if God allows, I may just be here awhile. The ocean sounds, smells, breezes all make me breathe easier. None of this is my doing. None of it. Contrary to what my mother in law says- it doesn't take two. Takes two to have problems. Every marriage has problems. I naively believed I had an exceptional marriage even in the middle of ours. HA! BUT it only takes one to be a coward and turn to a FUSTC instead of your beloved. Nope Grandma, it only takes one. He ALONE destroyed my family. And I am mad. And at the beach. And breathing a bit easier. Angry Alice sounds a little schizo but in reality I think she might be healthy. Welcome Alice. Welcome.