Sinking Ship

I love this man. Captain obvious, I wouldn't be here if I didn't. But I have not been acting like it. Acting more like I need a straight jacket and padded room. I have crushed his spirit. Ya ya I know he crushed me but this shouldn't be payback. He has done everything right since D-Day. Everything. And I wallowed in my heartache. And spewed my venom all over him, instead of trying to understand he is hurting too, instead of seeing his guilt and shame crushing him, instead of remembering we need to work on this marriage not just him. I've done this to the point that he can't look at me, can't bear the pain he sees.  So today I am hurting more. So today he is feeling worse. Lost hope. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. Help us get off this sinking ship, together. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus