WTH Ella?

I lied to my husband. And I feel sick about it. I took $$ out of our savings after D-day and just put it aside. Actually I put it in my parents safe. And forgot about it. And this weekend, he decided he needed to be more involved in our finances instead of leaving it all to me (this is a good thing). A couple of things happened. I saw in black and white just how much $$$ I have been spending on nothing. I never would have done this before D-day. I honestly didn't have a clue how much it was adding up. I am embarrassed. What was this? Therapy shopping, stress shopping, escape shopping, revenge shopping?? I have no idea but I am embarrassed.  And then I remembered.  So TWO days later (WTH Ella??) I fessed up to having a cash stash. Did I fess up to the whole amount?? NO.... Again I say WTH Ella? I put all of it back into our account but I didn't just tell him the whole truth. Trickle truth? Something like what he did in the beginning after D-day? Oy. Ella you suck. WTH??