Can I call her bitch/cunt/whore when I am talking to God??

So I am seriously stuck in this nightmare and cannot move forward. Came up with a game plan with my counsellor yesterday. Instead of dumping all of is on my husband CONSTANTLY, I am allowed one rant a day. I am going to journal (rant,rave, bitch, moan, cry, scream, curse, hate,cry some more) to God about every feeling I have, the good,the bad, and the DESPICABLE. Total transparency to Him. One time a day. Once. That's all I get. Ugg and then, line by line by line, I have to tell Him thank you for each and every thing. There will be blessing out of this-He promises He WILL work all things together for my good and His glory so I have to thank Him-and confess I am lying thru my teeth but hoping I will actually learn to recognize the good not focus so darn much on the awful.  Now here is the kicker. I have to spend the rest of the day living like I am healed. I CANNOT talk, think, dwell in this hell hole anymore. Now obviously if something comes up I will talk to my husband about it but this pity party, bottom feeding, hate-hole I have dug myself into-I need to quit this crap. And so today is day 1. When, not if, this heartache comes to mind (ummmm constantly) I have to NOT focus on it and make myself think about true, honorable, just, pure, lovely commendable, and excellent things. I have to heal, FOR ME. So FOR ME, I am going to pretend I am healed from this nightmare and hopefully, sooner rather than later I won't be pretending anymore.