Crazy Lady Under the Overpass

Part of this nonsense, is because 'you rely too much on me.' Funny never realized I shouldn't rely on my husband. or shouldn't trust him. or believe in him. or count on him. yep my bad. I kind of hate him today. He threw me away like garbage. again.  Today I am done. Tomorrow, or 30 seconds from now, who knows? But right now. I am done. He is sick. Something is seriously wrong, twisted in his mind. Poor him but no more poor me.  I am no longer his 'victim'. I am a survivor, thanks to God's grace. I am terrified of being that crazy homeless lady by the freeway yelling at all the people driving by. But you know what I realized tonight?  I am more terrified of life with my husband ever again. Time to stand up Ella. and when you can't-God can. Trust Him alone.